
So I guess you can say I'm back. At first when i creted this blog I thought it would be something for me to do because I'm always sitting on the computer. To be completely honest, i can't do it. So whenever I get on I'll update, but not on the daily. Maybe weekely! Anyways, let e tell you whats been going on...
Well on February 28th, I will or ' supposedly' been in a relationship for 10 months. I haven't been in a relationship past 2 months, nor has it ever been this serious. The reason why I say supposedly is because that we broke up in December(wow, thats a bad month for me) for a whole week. We then became best friends ("C") for those days that we weren't together. I always neglected that character during that week because I was so hurt. My ex, well we will call this person " J " always called and checked up on me during this time period. I started to see why I had feeling for the individual and became confused for 30 seconds (literally). Those feelings were never exposed to the individual because I knew deep down inside that, that person wasn't the one. I had really strong feelings for "C" but I REALLY wanted to put these feelings on hold and explore more. I really never dated anyone besides "C". I mostly was on a sexual endeavor more than emotional. When I met "C" I never really knew why I felt so sprung, I couldn't get "C" out of my f-ing mind. At the time I was with "J" but we weren't on any serious type shyt, well on my part anyways. Well anyways I decided to end it with "J" so I could be more focused on why I was so crazy over "C". Later I expressed my feelings towards "C" but, it didn't work out like I planned it would. I don't really know if "C" was in a relationship or not at the time, but I guess I won't ever no since "C" never wants to talk aboot "C's" past. These days I've been tring to get closer to "C", I want "C" to be fully open with me, "C" must feel comfortable with me at all times with anything.
I'm getting off track....
So anyways "C" finally expressed "C's" feelings for me in an email on new years 06. I mean, to me it was a bunch of jiberish that said either the two following things; "hey I want to be friends" "hey I'm really feeling you on a emotional level" At the same time, "J" was finally trying to get closer to me on a relatioship level (yes we were broken up @ the time). It was a hard and stressful choice but I decided to choose none of them....
Later on in life around Apr 06...I decided that it was wrong to do both of them like that...so I told "J" that we could make it happen again, but we were going to do it right.
The next day "C" typed me this enormous email and explained somewhat of how "C" felt and oooooh wait I left something out!
The reason why I had to give up on "C" was because "C" was dating other ppl, after "c" sent me that txt telling me how much they cared!
"c" explained everything, but I was still mad, but hey, who could be mad at all that innocent mentallity.
Anyways, after that "c" and I joined forces, and became one.
Around August, "C" did something bad. I did something worse. Which did conflict our relationship negatively, but we got thru it.
December 06, we broke up because "C" felt we were getting too ahead of oursleves, basically bitched out. And at the time, "J" still wasn't giving up.
So I felt I had to go with my gut and choose "C". Yes "C" makes bad decisions but I'm sure they weren't careless decisions.
As for "J" I feel bad of the individual. "J" is an obnoxious stupid ass person, but "J" is intelligent don't get me wrong. I answer "J's" phone calls once and awhile but, then "C" gets all hay wire...."C" thinks "J" is more attractive or whatever, I mean "J" is very attractive, but I'm really not feeling "J" like that.